Loopy
- I had surgery yesterday. My c-section scar had developed a hernia when I started doing some weight lifting with a trainer last winter. For several months I figured the (mostly minor) pain was just scar tissue tugging on new muscles until I finally went to the doctor two weeks ago just to make sure it was nothing serious. Very glad I did, since it turned out to be a hernia. It was small enough that it probably wouldn't have been a problem in general. But for someone who plans on having another baby at some point, a hernia could turn into a huge problem. The doctor said it could be excruciating to have one while pregnant, and then of course they wouldn't be able to operate. So surgery it was, yesterday.
- Aside from the hernia there was also a lot of scar tissue that they cleaned out, which means now I'm in a lot of pain. I guess the hernia surgery is usually only moderately painful. But when they scrape out a bunch of scar tissue it affects all sorts of nerve endings that then go crazy for a while. One word: Lortab.
- I hate to sound like a junkie, but since I've never so much as smoked a joint in my life, I will unabashedly admit that I love the feeling of going to sleep before surgery. I didn't even have to have general anesthesia for this surgery, which made it even more lovely. Falling asleep with general feels nice, but waking up from it is nasty. The two times I've had it I felt like it took me several days to feel like myself again. But with this one they just did deep sedation, and it was a much better experience. The peaceful feeling of drifting off to sleep without struggling (like I do most nights), then staying asleep until they discontinue the drugs, after which you wake up more or less aware. Man, do I love sleeping when it comes that easily.
- J has been home with M and I yesterday and today, and has been awesome about taking care of both of us. I'm dreading tomorrow when he'll be at work and we'll be on our own. M is absolutely adorable and relatively easy but she does like me to carry her around a lot during the day still. I can pick her up and hold her, but I've found it impossible to walk around holding her. Even with her slight 22 pounds and my "muscular core" (according to the doctor--thanks Doc! One of the best compliments I've gotten in recent memory) it takes my breath away to engage all those muscles enough to move while holding her. On the one hand it's very cool to become so aware of all of thoes muscles and to realize how strong I usually am. On the other hand it's going to make tomorrow pretty challenging. Here's hoping M's little heart will somehow understand that she needs to take it easy on her mama.
- On a different note. I discovered today that October is my favorite month in this state so far. We've been here since February, so that only leaves November through January as competition, but October has turned out to be absolutely lovely. The second half of October, anyway. The first half was still 90 degrees and claustrophobically humid. But the second half? Perfect. Deep blue, cloudless skies; 70 something degrees; tonight it's cool enough outside that J opened the windows to let the breeze in. Aaah.
